I'm not going to lie - today feels a bit confused for me.
It's the first Sunday of my retirement.
It is the first Sunday where I am not making a list in my mind of all of the things I need to do at work in the coming week.
For most of my life Sunday has meant work. As a student it was when I would do my homework and prepare for the week ahead. As a teacher it meant planning, marking, reading student journals. . . in short working my way through the piles of stuff I had brought home from school on the previous Friday. After I left the classroom it was focused on drafting correspondence for my assistant to format, reviewing materials, responding to 100s of emails, and preparing for the meetings scheduled in the upcoming week.
Sundays were not relaxing for me. IN fact, they were quite the opposite.
Generally I was awake in the night thinking of all of the things I needed to do during the upcoming day. I tried to keep the morning free but not long after lunch the stress of ignoring my list would generally prove too much and I'd find myself in front of the computer. Where I'd usually sit for anywhere from 3 - 8 hours.
I wonder how long it will take to turn that off?
I did wake in the night but when there were no jobs that needed to be prioritized on a mental list I rolled over and fell back asleep.
I still feel some pressure to sit at my computer and to do something (so I am doing this. :-))
Trust me - I am not complaining about this. It is just a disconcerting feeling right now but in the grand scheme of things . . . I'll take it!
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